Over the past couple of years, my life has consisted of so much change. Since I graduated from high school, I’ve moved 9 times. My heart has gone on more rollercoasters than I would care to admit. I’ve gone to school, then not gone to school, then back to school more times than I want to even figure out. These are all things I’ve chosen to pursue.
It’s taken me THIS long to realize that I’ve had the wrong perspective. I’ve been praying about everything the wrong way.
Every time something changed, every time my heart broke and the ground fell out from underneath me, I clung to this:
I trusted that God had a plan.
I prayed for my circumstances to change and come into alignment with that plan; That something crazy would happen so that I would know with absolute certainty what the future held.
But that’s not really what needed to change. My Heart needed to change.
I’m not saying that it’s bad to pray for a change in circumstances, but I don’t want that to be the first priority. Now, I’m trying to pray for my heart to come into alignment with His regardless of my circumstances. Why not declare the things that are known to be true over the uncertainties that give me anxiety? No matter how I feel, even if the numbness has overtaken me, I will declare His truth.
Life is uncertain and full of change, I don’t know what’s next.
He is unchanging, forever the same and one thing that I do know is that He is good.
I stumbled upon this song today accidentally, but it totally expressed what I’ve been feeling in my heart. This song is a declaration of the truths that God has been revealing to me lately. I’m overwhelmed with the ways that He continues to remind me every day about how much He knows my heart and cares about me.
His light shines and my heart glows.